israeli politics

As the Russian army makes ready to enter Kiev, my heart goes out to every individual shuddering in their unprotected homes.  My heart goes out to every soldier and his family who are almost as terrified as the victims.  

And why does my heart go out so –  perhaps partly because I have been in every one of those places.  But of course there are other reasons….

february 24, 2022 – war Read Post »

israeli politics

Many years ago, a cousin  of Ezi’s, Ehud Netzer z”l, took us on a tour of the family’s Jerusalem.  Among all the places he showed us, such as the police station on Jaffa Road, which was once the house of Ezi’s great grandparents, he also discussed much of the family’s history.  As usual, I wasn’t paying total attention, but when he came to the part about Zalman Ben Tovim and Itzhak Isaac Ben Tovim being friends of Eliezer Ben Yehuda and contributing to the lexicon, I did my best to focus.  The only word I could remember was “kvish” for road.  Yesterday I started going on a hunt for other Hebrew words invented by Ezi’s family.  It took all day and I found nothing, so I didn’t have a chance to update this journal on time for a daily entry,but maybe another cousin will come up with something today.  

february 24, 2022 – Ben Tovim and Ben Yehuda Read Post »

israeli politics

I wish I hadn’t made the rule that I’m not allowed to edit or even reread what I’ve written in these pages.  I was on a high a few hours ago about how good I felt, and now I’ve become obsessed about breaking that rule.  Well, maybe someday.

The reason I’m thinking about rules is the trouble kids are having as they try to adjust to school after all those long months of zoom and relative freedom.  Today a seventh-grader in the school that my grandson is going to next year slapped his teacher.  I understand that he is much taller than her, and she is in shock.  But I imagine that the whole country is in shock.  

I keep going back to the third act of Shakespeare’s Troilus and Cressida, when Ulysses explains why Troy has not been captured despite the long siege.

he specialty of rule hath been neglected:
………..
When that the general is not like the hive
To whom the foragers shall all repair,
What honey is expected? Degree being vizarded,
The unworthiest shows as fairly in the mask.
The heavens themselves, the planets and this centre
Observe degree, priority and place,
Insisture, course, proportion, season, form,
Office and custom, in all line of order;
And therefore is the glorious planet Sol
In noble eminence enthroned and sphered
Amidst the other; whose medicinable eye
Corrects the ill aspects of planets evil,
And posts, like the commandment of a king,
Sans cheque to good and bad: but when the planets
In evil mixture to disorder wander,
What plagues and what portents! what mutiny!
What raging of the sea! shaking of earth!
Commotion in the winds! frights, changes, horrors,
Divert and crack, rend and deracinate
The unity and married calm of states
Quite from their fixure! O, when degree is shaked,
Which is the ladder to all high designs,
Then enterprise is sick! How could communities,
Degrees in schools and brotherhoods in cities,
Peaceful commerce from dividable shores,
The primogenitive and due of birth,
Prerogative of age, crowns, sceptres, laurels,
But by degree, stand in authentic place?
Take but degree away, untune that string,
And, hark, what discord follows! each thing meets
In mere oppugnancy: the bounded waters
Should lift their bosoms higher than the shores
And make a sop of all this solid globe:
Strength should be lord of imbecility,
And the rude son should strike his father dead:
Force should be right; or rather, right and wrong,
Between whose endless jar justice resides,
Should lose their names, and so should justice too.
Then every thing includes itself in power,
Power into will, will into appetite;
And appetite, an universal wolf,
So doubly seconded with will and power,
Must make perforce an universal prey,
And last eat up himself. Great Agamemnon,
This chaos, when degree is suffocate,
Follows the choking.
And this neglection of degree it is
That by a pace goes backward, with a purpose
It hath to climb. The general’s disdain’d
By him one step below, he by the next,
That next by him beneath; so every step,
Exampled by the first pace that is sick
Of his superior, grows to an envious fever
Of pale and bloodless emulation:
And ’tis this fever that keeps Troy on foot,
Not her own sinews. To end a tale of length,
Troy in our weakness stands, not in her strength.

All right, it’s a long speech, but you got through it and you see it connects all loss of order.  When we can’t respect our leaders, everything in society goes awry, everything in the world loses its order.  So we have the leaders of the world in total chaos, the medical system unable to make use of the amazing progress it has made in curing disease because ….

I was interupted mid-sentence by the announcement that the building I have been living in for the past 40-odd years is probably going to be torn down and rebuilt in the course of the next two years as part of a plan of the municipality to urbanize the neighborhood.   How’s that for a fulfillment of a prophecy?  And it came from a place I wasn’t expecting at all.  

I said probably, but it is more and more certain minute by minute…

 

 

february 22, 2022 – school Read Post »

israeli politics

Everything doubled today.  The chances for war, the mess of our government,   the tasks I have to complete, and, surprisingly, my ability to actually complete them. 

It seems – for now at least – that the massive doses of antibiotics I’m taking are doing some good.  Take, for example, my mid-morning visit to the health clinic to get my heart monitor.  (Now, I have been spending at least one morning a week on medical tests for the past four months.  Most of the time they are anonymous and superficial at best – and I’m pretty sure the concentration on saving lives of covid victims has much to do with the lack of attention I’ve been getting.  But today I made it through an hour workout, the EKG, the monitor, a good visit with a friend, a month’s worth of food shopping, laundry, and I’m still ready to go even though it’s past my nap time. And much more that has to be finished today.  So if I don’t answer you that’s part of it.)  

Back to the crowded health clinic.  It is never a joyous occasion to go to the doctors, and the masks always make it even more uncomfortable.  But as soon as we realize the fact that we are all victims of this situation, and there are no enemies, everything becomes more pleasant.  So the nurse began by warning me not to bathe – except for ‘a french bath’ – she said, demonstrating with her hands.  ‘I get it,’ I respond, ‘lots of perfume.’  We continued exchanging pleasantries for the duration of my visit so that by the time I left with my monitor, everyone was smiling behind their masks.  

 

 

 

2-22-2022 – twosday – Read Post »

israeli politics

Whatever she said yesterday – Putin said today.   The nightmare and the force of it were just fading when I wrote about it yesterday, so maybe I didn’t include her rant about Ukraine being Russian and that Zelensky being a puppet who is told what to say through an earpiece (by Biden) and he’s endangering the millions of Russians living in Ukraine – which should be Russian…  Sometimes your nightmares come true.

But it might not have hit me so hard had we not just been on a webinar about immuno-suppressed patients.  I had been so sure that Ezi would be getting the new treatment, Evusheld, and we would be able to see the kids freely and go on vacation and all that.  But it turns out he’s not eligible.   The webinar itself was a nightmare because all the bigwig specialists admitted that they have no idea of what would be happening next with Corona.  

So it’s back to living for the moment.  I get another 24-hour heart monitor tomorrow and we’ll see how my moments are going.   Until then, I’m not even going to look at the local news and check up on whether Gantz is going to break up the government.

 

 

february 21, 2022 – Stress continued Read Post »

israeli politics

Sometimes you don’t know where it comes from.  You’re talking to someone, maybe about something simple, like poetry, or something more challenging, like war – and it transmutes into a volcano, then a bull charging directly at you.  I was talking to a Russian friend about shopping, and I happened to mention that whenever I get nervous about self-preservation I over-buy at the supermarket.  Like many people are doing in the Ukraine.  

And that’s when the volcano erupted.  How we in the west don’t understand Putin and how he is having the time of his life scaring us.  But there’s nothing to worry about.  Zelensky anyway is just a comedian, a puppet for the West who is making a fortune selling outdated weapons to poor Ukraine.

She moved quickly on to a criticism of  the world leaders in the West – blind colonialists, war mongerers…

In the best of times I hate arguing – I prefer working out a situation through dialogue after a presentation of facts.  But I just wanted to get out of there.   The worst part of the meeting was not even the possibility of war but the terrible emotions that blocked the possibility of dialogue.

  

february 20, 2022 – tension Read Post »

israeli politics

Because my brother mentioned Oifn Pripizhok in the middle of a rather glum talk and I went to look it up, I came across this version of oifn pripichok and couldn’t stop crying.  The video connects it to the holocaust even though the connection isn’t logical.  But there are more verses and they do indicate the same direction.

So i searched for a song that would make me feel better – and looked up Martha Schlamme’s Oifen eiven – over the hearth – that describes a girl sitting on the shelf above the fireplace, sewing. A boy comes by and pulls on the thread, and she pulls him up.  The song ends with both of them on the shelf above the hearth – and nobody is pulling or sewing.  There are lots of songs in Yiddish about lovers, but they are forgotten.  Like “Margaritkelach” which is about a one-night stand – well, a single- afternoon stand.

 

 

 

february 19, 2022 -yiddish songs Read Post »