Its one of the worst things that can happen to a person after they’ve been raped – that you’re not believed. That’s why I’m so shocked and really appalled by the reaction of the international women’s organizations. Here are a few articles:
I wasn’t going to talk about it either, because the subject is physically painful to me, but when I looked it up on Google, there was almost nothing outside of Israel. Little girls, old ladies, and all the women in between were raped in their beds or while they were at a party and murdered, sometimes in reverse order, documented by the rapists themselves and we don’t even talk about it. What amazing hypocrisy!
Someone is shutting them up.
It’s like I was told at college that if I reported it, the fraternity would bring dozens of boys to swear that I did it for a living.
I was watching the long rows of refugees from Gaza city trudging down south to an uncertain future, carrying all they own.
Then I remembered. My parents were refugees. They managed to get out of the international city of Danzig where they had been refugees from Lithuania for 4 years – and arrived in England the night before Hitler’s invasion of Poland. Their visas were temporary, and from the moment they arrived, their sponsors were looking for a way to get them out of England. That’s why I grew up in America.
But my parents never would have been able to return to their homes. The whole neighborhood was bulldozed. We found new homes in America, and I never thought of myself as a refugees. Even though the only clothes I had were in a tiny bag, and what I wore was a jumpsuit made down from British army blankets.
I hope these people have intact homes to go back to when this is over. But I have said goodbye to a number of homes and entered bare rooms and started over again and again, and apart from a few neuroses, managed.
With so many massive cruelties that have been visited on the people of Israel over the past few years, the blaming of the victims of terrorism, it shouldn’t be surprising that the victims of brutal rape should be ignored, almost forgotten.
It’s like a second rape, this dismissal of the brutalization of the women on Oct 7. Perhaps because most of the women were dismembered and will not carry their shame into the future that we can close the chapter, perhaps because it is embarassing to talk about such subjects, an admission of weakness.
But I have to admit I’m totally shocked by the silence of American women’s organizations. The evidence is everywhere – on the go-pros of the rapists and murderers, in testimonies of witnesses. How is it that organizations for women’s rights around the world are sanctioning this unspeakable behavior?
It doesn’t matter now, does it? We’ve been shamed enough by the invasion and slaughter. The dead are dead. Still, imagine your own last moments in such degradation. Or imagine living with the memory. The horror.
The only thing you can count on right now in Israel is that there’s going to be a rocket somewhere near you every day. The government is certainly not dependable in any way. The army is fine. The citizens are amazing. The children are functioning at a level much higher than I could ever imagine in this situation. But the government – in one word – stinks. We’re comfortable with chaos as individuals, but what we would could accomplish with a real government.
With a thousand better things to do I can do nothing. We’re letting oil into Gaza on the condition that it doesn’t get to Hamas, but we know that for Hamas, incubators be damned. The preemies will be shahids and it will be our fault.
And our babies, hostages held who knows where? While women here are donating breast milk to the new orphans of October 7, who is feeding the hostage babies?
So while I can think of a thousand things I have to do I can only think of thousands of babies.
Just as I was thinking about taking a shower before our guests arrived for dinner, and I was just taking off my clothes, the sirens went off and I had to quickly dress and make it down to the shelter. I had said before that Friday night would be a natural time for them to try to upset us, but I didn’t really pay too much attention to myself.
Yorem was interviewing me yesterday and I started talking about all the wars I was in and a phrase of Hilda Doolittle’s opus about London during WWII kept coming back to me:
trembling at a known street-corner,
we know not nor are known;
the Pythian pronounces — we pass on
to another cellar, to another sliced wall
where poor utensils show
like rare objects in a museum;
Pompeii has nothing to teach us,
we know crack of volcanic fissure,
slow flow of terrible lava,
pressure on heart, lungs, the brain
about to burst its brittle case
(what the skull can endure!):
over us, Apocryphal fire,
under us, the earth sway, dip of a floor,
slope of a pavement
The wrecks of homes they show on the TV as survivors return to what was left of their homes – now an exhibit. A bed, where murdered babies were first conceived, riddled with bullets now, the babies burnt beyond recognition. The lovers themselves may yet be alive, somewhere in Gaza. I focus on the bed – an object – that will be replaced soon. New babies will be made – that’s what helps my skull endure the brain’s pressure.
It is a very slow process, the healing, the incorporation of the facts of what happened to us, what it means, what its implications are, and how it will be possible to achieve a normal life after. For me, it is not that bad – I’ve been through wars before and not that much happened to me any of the times. I’ve never been shot at directly, although sometimes I felt like I had a target on my shirt when I felt the rockets getting closer and closer. I’ve never been in the situation the people in Gaza are in now.
And I’m trying to get to the point that I can actually feel their humanity. Vivian Silver, whose body was found last week, used to meet cancer patients at the Gaza border and take them to the hospital in Israel for treatment. She was a friend of my friends and she really believed in peace.