i’m taking off a few days to catch up with my life. My latest book is pulling in all kinds of interviewers and I’m not keeping up. i’ll tell you more tomorrow when I find I can’t keep away from you.
With all that’s going on in the country, the death of Matti Caspi feels to me the most tragic. Chava Alberstein once said that his songs grow – and every time I hear them I hear something greater, something different, something new, something deeper. As much as I love Arik Einstein, Matti Caspi crawls into my heart every time.
And now that he is gone I suddenly realize I never met him. I saw him once, on his bicycle, missing a tooth, on the street where my dentist’s office was, and the fact that the memory was burned into my mind, means to me that even his presence itself was magical.
Even my sister-in-law and I had long talks on different rhythms in his songs – the deepest conversations we ever had.
We have known he was dying for the year and yet I always hoped…
I just came back from a literary evening that blew my mind – so many intelligent people with such knowledge about literature – as well as good poems on profound subjects. The problem is that we were all old. They were talking about old literature and and literary history and their literature all was linked into a tradition. One of the participants has a weekly show that includes participants with music and stories from all ethnic backgrounds. we always watch it. I told him about how much I enjoy that he brings all cultures together and he said “write about it” and I realized that he too reads my diary. And that he knows that I too find it very important to reveal the similarities of cultures.
I need a private cardiologist. I’ve been going to cardiologists who look at the tests they sent me to take and then without looking, checking me, or talking me, tell me to carry on.
I get more information from chat-gpt but I still dont get checked.
And no one addresses my gender or history or geneology..
so i turn to you – Am I hysterical or do I need a woman cardiologist who asks me what else is going on with my life and my gender?
not relative to Tel Aviv Diary but a problem that is probably universal.
on the way back from the north today we stopped at a shopping mall to get some of the equipment I need for our hiking trip soon, and wandered into a shoe shop where I discovered my only joy in shopping – a salesman with a sense of humor. I told him I need hiking shoes and he offered me Hokka. “I don’t like the look of Hokka shoes,” I said, and he responded, “That’s funny, because my wife says they’re her favorite shoes.”
He went up and down the steep ladder, brought me a pair that were too small, and went back for a half a size larger. I admired his dedication and he replied, “Shoes are my only love.” “What about your family?” I asked. “Oh, I’m not married,” he quickly responded, looking me straight in the eye.
You know I bought the shoes, but as I was debating about socks, he began to show signs of impatience, “Hurry up, my wife’s in labor,” he said, without batting an eye. And we all laughed together.
There are people who use language for communication of facts, and others who use it as a means of communication of emotion, of friendship or enmity. This guy knew I was not believing him from the beginning, but he managed to sell me a pair of shoes I didn’t initially want by communicating in spite of the facts. It’s a bargaining tool I find is really perfected in the oriental culture – and reminds me of Scheherazade.
Because my heart keeps jumping, I am going around for tests. The usual. EKG, Halter, blood, are first stage – but the doctor this afternoon will order more, and send me back to the surgeon – just to calm me down, and make me feel like a hysterical old lady.
This is a time of uncertainty – we may be able to cobble countries together and return these amazing countries things to their former deserved glory, we may fall into international conflagration.
Both my body and my world are on a similar teeter totter. But with me it doesn’t matter all that much. One way or another we’ll figure a way out.
But I want to go on vacation, traipse around volcanos and stuff. I need a little time by the pool in my bikini (got to get one one of these days) with toenails painted to match my diaphanous cover up. And I wish I could think of an international equivalent for that. It would make all the difference.