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at the hairdressers - 5.11.26

The guy who sweeps the floor appears cool to me.  He’s well-dressed, neat, good-looking.  But when he sits in the barber’s chair next to mine I have the sense that a puppy has come close for protection, and I start to talk with him.  

It’s a problem for me because I’m not good at small talk and I have a tendency to move in too close for comfort.  He has a tattoo on his arm that says “to be or not to be.”  I ask him what it means, and he says,  it’s Shakespeare, so, always an english teacher, I ask, but what does it mean.  He says “to decide whether to join the world or stay inside your head.”

i think he got up and went somewhere else at that point and left me thinking this guy has got a serious case of PTSD.

Then I had the best haircut in years and was so happy I forgot to say goodbye to him.  

How could part of the country be so thrilled in coming back to normality when so many are so damaged by the war?  

 

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one country - two worlds - 5.10.26

It is impossible for me to accept the fact that the violent settlers in the west bank are my people.  It is much easier to believe that the Arab inhabitants belong to me.  

 

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front page sympathy - 5.8.26

Since Oct 7, 2023, I have been opening the NYTimes every day and starting with the front page photographs.   They are always of  destruction primarily in Gaza, Iran and Lebanon.  I check the photo in the hope that some of the horrifying damage to this country would also be acknowledged.  But we don’t take photos of destruction, don’t share information that could aid for further military agression.  And now that we are considered murderers, I doubt we will ever make the front page.  I hope we don’t.

 

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sympathy - 5.7.26

i happened to find myself in a meeting with an international literary organization that has condemned Israel repeatedly for genocide.   Although I have been thinking and talking and writing about genocide for the past two years, in listening to the need for further isolation and condemnation of Israel I realized they just don’t get it.  Three countries have been bombing us for well over two years and no one has complained  because we had shelters and we shot down a lot of the rockets that would attack peopled areas.  

And most of the civilians who were killed in Gaza we surrounding Hamas.

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couldn't get in?

couldn’t get it?  it was just a theme hiccup, and with the site’s ai i managed to fix it.  But I was paranoid about it, and wasted an afternoon not talking to my husband but communicating with an ai.  

It has come to that.  Since the beginning of the COVID epidemic we have spent so much time alone together we don’t even discuss the news together – because we know what each other think.

Or maybe because we don’t want to scare each other.  I mean our lives are dependent on what Donald decides in the next 48 hours.  

So I have already bought out the grocery store in preparation for the holiday in 2 weeks.    But I have not invited my kids yet.

 

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lag b'omer - 5.4.26

this is how we celebrate l’ag b’omer this year.  first, we avoid setting the foest on fire. second, we avoid letting any potential enemy know where we are. third, we avoid overeating.  

Oh, come on, who celebrates nowadays?  We spent the morning with the lawyer updating our wills, the afternoon at the very sad funeral of Dame Shirley Porter, and the evening trying to figure out what the bank wants from the IAWE.  So a little fun was definitely in order. 

 

 

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eve of war - 5.3.26

we’re almost indifferent to it – to the fact that we may be at war if Trump decides – even tomorrow.  Nothing we can do about it, so we just plan normal days. 

And yet it’s normal with a constant alert.  You automatically look for the nearest shelter no matter where you are, you don’t expect any office to be working normally, and you buy what’s available – but make sure it is local produce.  I don’t expect to get out of the country any time soon, and I don’t make plans for anything

notice how I slipped from you to me.   

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pay attention - 5.3.26


Had I reported some of the incidents of anti-semitism, years ago – who knows whether it would have made a difference.  and who knows whether they would have been worthy of reporting.  they were small things, the kind of thing you might brush off.  My brother doesn’t even remember getting his white shirt all bloodied by a small gang of boys.  

One ‘trivial’ example.  When I was writing my biography of Adelaide Crapsey (I was staying on long island) I discovered there a was a woman living in Garden City whose father befriended Adelaide on a cruise with his daughter.  So I called her and paid her a visit.  She was elderly and remembered vaguely the meeting but with a little encouragementup squeezed out a few details.  I saw she was exhausted and left, promising to return next week.  But when I arrived the second time her husband was waiting outside and escorted me to the drawing room, where, he said, he wanted me to hear something on his new CD player.  Patiently I sat through a section of the Niebelungenlied, but when he asked me if i knew the composer I pleaded innocence.  “This is Wagner!”  he shouted, “He knew what to do with people like you!”  Then he got up and ordered me to leave and never return.  

this was in 1985.


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