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People are angry, frightened, lost, but highly motivated to help relieve the suffering of many many victims, neighbors, friends, and those in need.  With some people I even feel a kind of blankness that is helping them get through the challenges of  sudden rocket fire.  We have lost a lot and we cannot imagine life after this war, but there is one thing we must not lose – our compassion for the people who are considered our enemies.  Even though some of them have slaughtered, and they have families who supported their battle cry, we have to remember their humanity.  I am suddenly reminded of a poem I published in a book, Ignorant Armies, by ccc press:

ARABESQUE

 

Gaza – 1974

 

I

 

After dinner I’m alone with the grandmother,

while the men talk business 

and wives feed the children 

bumping each other in the hidden kitchen.

 

I am a guest, an English teacher new

to the Middle East, without tongue,

and I cannot play in pantomime –  

like my daughter – with the children and the goats.

 

In this bare room

the old woman talks 

as if eventually I must understand

her language

 

since she speaks in the feminine.

 

II

 

When I cannot answer, even after her long 

probing looks, she shrugs,

takes her crochet hook from a pocket,

and points out the window 

to a girl 

dancing solemnly alone.

 

Her gnarled hands, wound with pink wool, move easily, 

and soon she is making lovely rosettes in the bodice.  

I take the hook and try to imitate, slip,

slip again, finally latch through the last eye

to pull the rose together.  She smiles, 

I show her a stitch of my own

which she examines, unravels, 

then duplicates with a flourish.

 

 

compassion – oct 19, 2023 Read Post »

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And here we are in another bright shiny morning. “The best country to dry laundry,” my mother used to say.  And I wonder if they are looking down from above – my mother who was a fervent Zionist and my father who believed in universality and Yiddish.  Actually, they held down both forts – because they learned Esperanto as the universal language, and prayed.  Neither solution worked.

What worked was flexibility, luck, alertness, and the ability to fit in.  And health.  My father who had been beaten very severely in Danzig, contracted perontinitis only later in England, but stayed healthy afterward for a number of years.  Until her lymphoma my mother was a picture of health  – or rather – the usual complaining woman.  (I”m like that – a thousand illnesses)  

So they survived.  But when they got to know the daily life of Israel, they were not happy about it.  My father – who had spent years in prison – did not like the way they pushed in line.

I wonder what they would think of this massacre.

 

morning – oct 19, 2023 Read Post »

israeli politics

I’d really like to get to sleep tonight, but although there has been a second barrage on Tel Aviv, it didn’t fall in my area yet.  The problem is that once I’m woken I can’t get back to sleep all night, and there is no way I’m going to sleep through a siren.  So instead of doing some of the really important things I have to do, I’m kvetching here.  

I’m really waiting for the rocket – just like I did in the Gulf War.  

Masochism becomes habitual.

 

sleep – oct 18, 2023 Read Post »