Today was the day I broke down and realized that TSA will never find my computer, and if it does, I will never be able to use it without thinking of the dozens of unanswered letters I wrote to them. Since there are at least three shops in Dizengoff Center that sell computers, we decided to go there and compare prices.
Of course we wound up with the same Asus I always get and probably paid more than if I’d bought it in a nearby store, but we had the experience of Dizengoff Center.
That means seeing old friends, getting lost in the double maze of the center, and seeing all kinds of very strange people. Why Dizengoff Center seems to attract weirdos like us I don’t know.
But, as I have probably told you, they have the best bathrooms.
This was the story she told yesterday to a group of guests. So many others were telling similar stories and many more are still unable to tell their stories.
a few years back when it happened, I posted the Delta commercial for underwear for amputees. The fact that it is part of the catalogue but not something about which we discuss is overwhelming. check it out?
For two years I have avoided going to the sites of the massacres on October 7. It seemed like making a tragedy into an opportunity for tourism. But when Ezi said he wanted to go I agreed, especially since we were hosting friends from the States who were very excited about going.
And it was overwhelming – the sheer numbers of individuals. I took this picture from the stage
but i can’t manage my new camera yet, and I’m too tired to work on it right now.
The hardest part for me to handle was the awareness of the survivors and the terrible situations they are in even now – Mazal Tazazo, for example.
At the Harlem Stage I was particularly impressed by the the imperative to give voice to the untold stories and to create a new history. Yes – this began with the Harlem Renaissance – and it is a rebirth.
This is what I am hoping for with Jews as well – a rebirth that unifies and dignifies all people. I want us to rise above our own differences, rise above the hatred around us, and teach ourselves and others that we can be proud without degrading the other.
When the recent soldiers were returned from Gaza they were asked about how they were treated – and what struck me most was not the cages, the beatings, the torture, the starvation, the deprivation of light, of sensation, of news, but the stories of being beaten by the general population, being thrown into a crowd on the street and randomly beaten. The hatred of an entire people on an individual.
This is the first rule that we as Jews should create now for ourselves – that we must overcome the hatred that twists the mind and overcomes the possibility to think rationally.
I know I keep disappearing but every hour that I’m not taking care of my back and my crazy stomach I’m trying to reconstitute my lost computer and/or protect the info that was there. And yet in the background of my life there are so many things going on that I have to be aware of every minute, because they are life and death issues. for me personally as well as for everyone i know.
Because he has been so depressed lately, and today was the worst for him in sales, I tried to cheer him up. “Do you remember the 6th of October when this place was full – and the guys from Gaza working on the building were all smiling and we were all laughing?” “Yeah, and now everyone’s depressed” “See how deceptive that happiness was?” “That’s even more depressing.”
coming home to Israel after almost a month abroad is difficult – not the cleaning, the washing, the reconnecting, the shopping, the bookkeeping, etc. – but the rethinking. The details we concentrate on – the details from the daily news, the neighborhood gossip, the whatsapp jokes – are all major issues of life and death. I couldn’t explain it when people asked me – but leaving this country is always a relaxation.
bear with me. i know my insistence on figurig everything mechanical and electronic myself or with Ezi is making the reconstruction of the lost computer more difficult, but at least, so far, it’s mine, and i’m still as honest as I can be. This is a confusing time for all – especially in Israeli politics – and very few of my friends are in any position to provide answers – political or electronic – so i forge ahead – bickering with Ezi about things we know not of.,
I should be back to normal by the middle of the week. hang on if you can.