23 “Will you sweep away the righteous with the wicked? 24 What if there are fifty righteous people in the city? Will you really sweep it away and not spare[c] the place for the sake of the fifty righteous people in it? 25 genesis 18
I cannot bear the sense of satisfaction I get from seeing an explosion in Gaza. I hate myself as much as I hate the terrorists who slaughtered my friend’s daughter and son-in-law while he was on the phone with them. The rapes, decapitations, incinerations, are beyond forgiveness, but I have been with people from Gaza, and I know there are rightous people there.
They left flags of Isis along with the decapitated bodies of our children. It was a message to us that they mean business – to slaughter all of us. And now some of them are being treated in our hospitals now.
I can understand why someone would join Isis – after all the flag says “There is no god but Allah and Mohammed is His prophet” which is the prayer of Islam. But they do not represent Islam. Islam does not slaughter babies.
imagine this – after decapitating a family, the terrorist goes through their pockets, steals their jewelry, money and credit cards for a shopping spree, grabs the play station for the kids, etc. etc. God send Elijah to Ahab and has him say:
אחאב הולך לקחת את הכרם, אולם שם מחכה לו אליהו הנביא, השואל אותו “הרצחת וגם ירשת” ואומר לו: “במקום אשר לקקו הכלבים את דם נבות, ילוקו הכלבים את דמך גם אתה.”
: “Have you killed, and also taken possession?” and, “In the place where dogs licked up the blood of Naboth, dogs will also lick up your blood
My mother managed through the wars by always looking forward. And when things were particularly difficult, don’t think at all about what happened, only if it helps you to understand what will happen. This always helps me in times of war.
So I will not dwell on decapitation of babies in the south, but the need to fortify the defences in the north. Thank goodness my invalid friend in the northern border has been moved to a safe place. She was saying she will die in her living room, the one with a piece of rocket from the gulf war on her sideboard, and I was tortured by that image.
One of my grandsons is volunteering to organize packages to soldiers in the south, one is a soldier, and my daughter is treating people for trauma. But I am doing little except writing, comforting friends, and following the news.
My blue-eyed cardiologist met me this morning because he’s going on reserve duty tomorrow, and although he really concentrated on my heart, I could see the concern in those beautiful eyes.
My mother always said you should keep the people who need to concentrate on defence full of love and power.
If you write me to ask if i’m okay, and I answer, it means I’m okay at the moment. Any one here might not be okay a moment from now. Rockets are falling indiscriminately, there are still ISIS type guys wandering around the country, and as much as we try to keep things normal, there are dangers all around. So okay doesn’t mean much.
I usually find myself turning the page or changing the channel when the topic is sexual harassment. Not because I’m not interested, but because it makes me remember. Not one incident, but innumerable incidents I really don’t want to recall. Most were involved with bosses or people with power over my situation, doctors, editors, drivers, etc. Most were not overwhelming in their use of physical force. All of them were refused, but all of them creep into my nightmares.
But although I do not find it possible to join demonstrations and only once signed a declaration disapproving the rights of arts to total sexual freedom (which got me cut off my column in Ha’aretz ) I sympathize wherever possible with victims of sexual pressure, and I’ve interviewed about it in the past, but I’ve never been totally active against it. And in those days you did not complain.
The root canal I’ve been having seems to be taking its toll on me. The first treatment was supposed to be the worst, but I managed to keep going through the day. The second time, a few days later, was a bit harder. I started forgetting simple things – like whether I have a zoom tonight or not. Today I’m forgetting everything else – i even forgot my password for a few hours.