I decided it was time to clear the table.  Even though the 2 glass tables we had worked for us for at least 20 years, they became too bulky for me too handle and not flexible.  So we went out and bought a very ordinary table that can expand, and today the Ukranian immigrants came to take them away.  

The new table arrives on Sunday and I am imagining it will be new beginning – a clean slate – that will allow me to find to imagine a way out of the terrible dilemma I see as our future.