Since October 7  I’ve been trying to be positive, to present a positive face to my fellow countrymen who are suffering so greatly.  I also try to preserve the privacy of my friends.  But today I broke down.  I looked into the eyes of my friend whose only son is in Gaza, and they were empty.  A similar emptiness I find in my friends who have had to leave their homes while the rockets destroy those very homes, and those whose families are hostages.  I try somehow to fill those eyes, but instead mine too are becoming blank.