I often regret things i’ve written on these pages. But since I bound myself to sponteneity from the very beginning of this journal in 2001 I don’t allow myself to rewrite or even reread my writing unless I declare it in advance.  So I review my thoughts and analyze them and understand how i came to my mistakes.  And tonight I am figuring what I bothered me about Mahler.  

I fell in love with him when I heard my dearest friend, Mira Zakai, singing a piece of his second symphony – herehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yxeTqo1hprE

Mira always made me feel that everything else was inferior to her.  No wonder Yehudi Menuhin chose her to sing Bach for the Pope.

and now I will stop writing about her or I will cry.