Ever since I sat on a panel and didn’t know we were supposed to be talking about Ka-Tzetnick and his negtative influence on Holocaust literature (because he wrote untruths about himself) I have been absorbed by his situation.  He said he spent two years in Auschwitz, Dina Golan says that according to the records he spent a month or two, for example.  He wrote about Jewish women as sex slaves for the Nazis, history says it couldn’t have existed because of the laws about purity of the race.  Etc. etc. etc.

So in a terrible inappropriate choice, I started reading his book about his treatment with LSD for post-trauma, Shivitti while waiting for a doctor at Ichilov to treat me.  (As before he stuck needles into my face while explaining to a bunch of residents what he was doing to me – after failing to check if the anesthetic had been administered in the right place.  So it was pretty agonizing experience – but one created by my own vanity ).

Anyway Shivitti describes the LSD experience of reliving the horrors of Auschwitz with the questions of religion.  He questions a God that would have allowed this genocide and discovers that under different circumstances the identities of the Nazis and the persecuted Jews could have been exchanged, that the source of the evil is in mankind.  The moment is one of transcendence reminding me of the Bhaggavad Gita, and I’m sure this is a sentence I will have to examine and explain in a much more careful way (Perhaps when Iran has finished bombing us) .

In a side note, I might add that Israel has been using permantin for post-trauma.  I’m not sure to what extent or with what results, but I hope to be looking into all this soon.

Jim Morrison and Aldous Huxley’s “Open the Gates” is repeated in Ka-Tzetnik’s writing here, and I first have to find out whether he is quoting them or understanding that LSD will open his gates to perception.

As for Iran, I hope they are just bluffing or trying to push Trump into the catbird seat.