I need a private cardiologist. I’ve been going to cardiologists who look at the tests they sent me to take and then without looking, checking me, or talking me, tell me to carry on.
I get more information from chat-gpt but I still dont get checked.
And no one addresses my gender or history or geneology..
so i turn to you – Am I hysterical or do I need a woman cardiologist who asks me what else is going on with my life and my gender?
not relative to Tel Aviv Diary but a problem that is probably universal.
on the way back from the north today we stopped at a shopping mall to get some of the equipment I need for our hiking trip soon, and wandered into a shoe shop where I discovered my only joy in shopping – a salesman with a sense of humor. I told him I need hiking shoes and he offered me Hokka. “I don’t like the look of Hokka shoes,” I said, and he responded, “That’s funny, because my wife says they’re her favorite shoes.”
He went up and down the steep ladder, brought me a pair that were too small, and went back for a half a size larger. I admired his dedication and he replied, “Shoes are my only love.” “What about your family?” I asked. “Oh, I’m not married,” he quickly responded, looking me straight in the eye.
You know I bought the shoes, but as I was debating about socks, he began to show signs of impatience, “Hurry up, my wife’s in labor,” he said, without batting an eye. And we all laughed together.
There are people who use language for communication of facts, and others who use it as a means of communication of emotion, of friendship or enmity. This guy knew I was not believing him from the beginning, but he managed to sell me a pair of shoes I didn’t initially want by communicating in spite of the facts. It’s a bargaining tool I find is really perfected in the oriental culture – and reminds me of Scheherazade.
Because my heart keeps jumping, I am going around for tests. The usual. EKG, Halter, blood, are first stage – but the doctor this afternoon will order more, and send me back to the surgeon – just to calm me down, and make me feel like a hysterical old lady.
This is a time of uncertainty – we may be able to cobble countries together and return these amazing countries things to their former deserved glory, we may fall into international conflagration.
Both my body and my world are on a similar teeter totter. But with me it doesn’t matter all that much. One way or another we’ll figure a way out.
But I want to go on vacation, traipse around volcanos and stuff. I need a little time by the pool in my bikini (got to get one one of these days) with toenails painted to match my diaphanous cover up. And I wish I could think of an international equivalent for that. It would make all the difference.
picture this: a birthday lunch for a very close friend – 5 spry elderly ladies sharing first courses at a wonderful restaurant- arguing politics, shartng information and having a marvelous time with the waiter. Me, I managed to resist the waiter’s encouragement throughout the meal to imbibe because it really makes me disfunctional, but couldn’t resist the lemoncello chasers. Now I know that Islam forbids drinking but the waiter drank with us and seemed to hold it much better than I did. And now that I think of it, I only drink with Arab waiters.