I know I keep disappearing but every hour that I’m not taking care of my back and my crazy stomach I’m trying to reconstitute my lost computer and/or protect the info that was there. And yet in the background of my life there are so many things going on that I have to be aware of every minute, because they are life and death issues. for me personally as well as for everyone i know.
thank goodness I’m not a shrink.
Because he has been so depressed lately, and today was the worst for him in sales, I tried to cheer him up. “Do you remember the 6th of October when this place was full – and the guys from Gaza working on the building were all smiling and we were all laughing?” “Yeah, and now everyone’s depressed” “See how deceptive that happiness was?” “That’s even more depressing.”
looking back at the grocers – 11.9.25 Read Post »
coming home to Israel after almost a month abroad is difficult – not the cleaning, the washing, the reconnecting, the shopping, the bookkeeping, etc. – but the rethinking. The details we concentrate on – the details from the daily news, the neighborhood gossip, the whatsapp jokes – are all major issues of life and death. I couldn’t explain it when people asked me – but leaving this country is always a relaxation.
And returning is always intense.
coming home – 11.8.25 Read Post »
bear with me. i know my insistence on figurig everything mechanical and electronic myself or with Ezi is making the reconstruction of the lost computer more difficult, but at least, so far, it’s mine, and i’m still as honest as I can be. This is a confusing time for all – especially in Israeli politics – and very few of my friends are in any position to provide answers – political or electronic – so i forge ahead – bickering with Ezi about things we know not of.,
I should be back to normal by the middle of the week. hang on if you can.
bear with me – 11.8.25 Read Post »
I haven’t been writing for the past few days because I had a backache and a stomachache. Normally I would make a special effort to say something wise, but the mess in values in government world-wide made me this about how we have to step back and reevaluate what our list of relevance is. Where should we be putting our emphasis, where our intentions, where our time.
For the first time in a month, for example, I paid attention to my pain and enjoyed the agonies of an osteopath. I suddenly found myself walking easily, and perhaps am able to take care of some of the other problems that have been haunting me.
And now we turn to politics. Our concerns and our values have been totally mixed up – by politicians first, but also by the media, and we have to learn to evaluate every single fact that is fed to us. This is true for Israel as well as New York. And the naivete is as mad here as there.
Mamdani will never accomplish most of the things he has promised to the population of the city, even though I would love most of it to happen. We’ll never set things straight with Gaza, unless we can make major changes to the attitude in the middle east.
order of Relevance – 11.5.25 Read Post »
It’s not enough that there is a shutdown at major airports. and no information is available on phone, email, fax. etc. I’m leaving a US that will choose Mamdani tomorrow and there is no doubt that he is the dream candidate.
But when I get home, without my computer, there is a stack of scandals to deal with. Mostly on a political level, but also of a personal nature. The tragedies are sad but inevitable. The scandals as well.
I won’t gossip about other people – it is really not proper. So this is about me. As soon as I got home I ran to the health clinic to find out why my back was hurting so much that I didn’t even try to get any business done. I limped, stood up from a chair at the speed of a sloth, and moved from bed to sofa all night. The osteopath said it wasn’t my back, pressed all over my stomach and released gas, and I should have felt better. However, I remembered the famous line by Jonathan Swift and realized there is a connection between my body and my spirit. “with wind and not with wisdom big” and I spent the next day in agony, recalling Ezi’s first reaction to chemotherapy. Fortunately I also recalled his doctor’s advice – to take gas-x and antacids every few hours.
So now I am just completely worn out and look forward to an afternoon of pleasure with my friends.
testing my return – 11.4.25 Read Post »
