did i call? was i supposed to? totally farmished. 10.16.25
One relatively minor thing about the war was that you never knew how to plan anything. or what would happen the next day. And now, even though the fighting has, for the moment stopped, and I’m far away I can’t plan for the future. the calendar should help me out, but I keep getting lost in it. what time? what country? who is invited? to what? who pays? who eats?
can i speak hebrew here? why not? no one seems to care? will Mamdani win? is he really as clueless as he sounds? why do my best friends and relatives love him? is it because it’s been so bad here for so long?
why do all the restaurants taste the same to me? why do all the storefronts seem to be peddling similar clothes? how many bloomingdales are there in new york?
When a country signs an agreement they usually are prepared to FULFILL the agreement. The fact that 24 bodies are missing are not only tragic for the families – it is an indication that even more agreements were not taken seriously and will not be fulfilled. I frankly am worried.
so soon after Israel announces that Rafah isn’t opening and soon after that the some bodies were discovered….
The first celebration in Israel from afar and we are in a rainstorm thousands of miles away. I know there are many bodies not identified and not brought home so the celebration is qualified, but I cannot stop smiling and watching CNN over and over instead of going out and enjoying the pleasures of new jersey…
now it's time for Jews to come together - 10.13.25
now it’s time for Jews to come together and understand each other. There are so many different kinds of Jews and so many antithetical opinions. And that’s part of Judaism – the individualism.
But we have to learn to get together. We have to learn to tolerate each other and not irritate each other. I myself am repulsed over and over by many kinds of Jews – the kinds that embarass me. Some that infringe on the comfort of others by their demands on others, some that register hatred and disgust of other jews. we’ve got to learn to be tolerant of each other and that will allow us to be tolerant and tolerated by others. And then we can start learning to work with the rest of the world.
there is much more to say about this, and much more to learn…
Since I’ve been here we’ve been asked endless questions that prove to me how little is known outside Israel of the life we’ve been living for the past two years. and in a way I thank the Lord that they don’t know. Why should everyone have to suffer? What they see is Gaza destroyed, and Gaza’s suffering is surely great. But Gaza had control over saving their people in the same we our government had control. I am sure we were bombed almost as much, and we kept the sites and the details out of the press to minimize the accuracy of the bombs. Here, when I see the destruction in Gaza that isn’t emphasized as much in Israel, I can understand how there is little understanding or sympathy of our situation.
let us hope we can make this into something positive.
maybe it’s good that i’m not celebrating with all the others – maybe it helps that my fears of the future can develop without harming the joy of the return. But I’d like to share them with you at least. First of all I’m terrified about the condition of the living hostages. And I’m angry that worry about them forces me to belittle the danger of the freeing of murderous hostages. Some of them are people I actually would admire had it not been for the terrifying charges against them.
My heart too is with all the incredible youth in Israel I so much admire – their awareness of the challenges they face, and the certainty that they can face them with honor.