israeli politics

medical marathon 1 3.12.24

at 7 a.m. we showed up for a ritual we’ve been going through for decades – a series of medical tests in which in the course of a morning you see most of the doctors you could possibly want to see in the course of a lifetime.  Then they write up their reports and send them to us eventually.  

I haven’t done this for a long while because of covid, the war, etc.  And now that I’ve done it – i will a need a week to recover.  

First of all I always wind up having to do the fitness tests at the end of the day when I’m exhausted, hungry, and impatient.  I don’t know how this happens, but I see these young people in shorts entering the argumentry room and they’re all fresh and fed.  

I want to push them aside and scream that I’m too old for this and need to get through it just after breakfast.

But I don’t.

Anyway I was the last one out at 2 in the afternoon, and found myself unable to function.  that is – the doctors made me sick.

It is amazing that there is a program like this – Once it was very luxurious with lots of breakfast treats, and individuals who paid close attention to your individual needs, but now it is a screen you must pay close attention to – a problem when you have drops in your eyes.  And in the past I met some great people there – especially ‘celebs’.  This time it was all these high tech people who don’t talk to people like me.

Never mind – I’ll go to the theater tonight and erase my trauma.

 

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israeli politics

Slow Start - 2.12.24

It seems there’s a few groups in Lebanon who haven’t heard about the ceasefire. We’re still getting rockets.  But the atmosphere has begun to pcik up.  I now am beginning to assess the damage to my mind, my life as well as the country.  Of course there is the damage all around – the terrible ongoing situation of the hostages, the tragedies of their families, the ptsd of an entire population, the disintegration of the concept of moral government, etc. etc.  But there’s also the distintegration of my mind.  The uncertainty of every day makes so much to hold in my memory that I am forgetting the most important things – even family.  I hope we can learn to forgive each other.  If I owe you a letter, I’m asking for mass forgiveness.  If I missed your party – I don’t remember…. I’m still busy waiting for a siren.

 

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israeli politics

It's Not Over - 1.12.24

With the Houtis still sending us rockets, and Isis trying to take over Syria, our troubles are not over.   

I’m used to the sirens so I follow the rules automatically.

But I’m just waiting for the hostages to come home and then I’ll start worrying about Isis and then maybe the Houtis.

And then, maybe, I can start worrying about concentrating on writing.  

This is not just a personal confession.  Not only is the Israel Association of Writers in English holding an evening about “uncertainty” but SELI, the organization of English departments in Israeli universities, is having a conference next month about the difficulty of writing now.    Creativity as well as Concentration is much more difficult in this extended war.

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