october 19, 2021 – pinchas zuckerman Read Post »
Oh, come on, it was everywhere: high school pressures, strangers on the street. Sometimes I wonder of any of those guys are still alive and feeling regretful.
But when I got out of school and into the world, it was horrendous. I sat with Ezi yesterday and started counting the number of editors, professors, doctors, employers, and just people who wanted me to do things – sometimes for a job that I didn’t get because I didn’t behave… So when I think of sexual abuse I think of how my career suffered from a lack of acquiescence and a sense of unworthiness as a result.
october 19, 2021 – sexual abuse in the seventies Read Post »
I must say this every year – certainly I think it. The week before Rabin was murdered, we were going home in the evening and we noticed a very large group of religious girls with long jean skirts walking down the street next to ours, having come from the bus station. And we wondered to each other what they could be doing in our boring neighborhood. Oh, said someone, they’re probably going to demonstrate in front of Rabin’s house. And we laughed. He lived down the street, and we were used to it…
Why did we think it was such a trivial event? That people felt they had the right to demonstrate in front of his house, to interfere with his life? That the growing violence was okay?
And yet today when I watch the memorial service and see that Bibi – who was the main instigator against Rabin – the man – is not present, I remember the tumult he created, the violence he called for.
And that violence continues today in a straight line since that terrible event. We’ve just degenerated since Rabin’s murder.
october 18, 2021 – Yitzhak rabin z”l Read Post »
shimon peres
Complaints about Shimon Peres and sexual abuse have been coming in for weeks since Colette Avital first confessed that he assaulted her. It’s so strange to me, because I spent those years being assaulted by so many people of authority, but never by Peres.
Maybe he had no opportunity and maybe I wasn’t attractive enough for him… But I found him such a wonderful, brilliant man – with a great need to be loved. I’m not defending him, but I am separating what he might have done sexually from what he wanted to do to save the country, to save the world.
october 17, 2021 – Read Post »
They say that public violence has increased dramatically in our society. It’s understandable that after 19 months of distancing and terror of illness, we would be suspicious of everyone and untrusting. Still, I personally have no greater reason to be nasty to others than before Corona. A friend lost her lover to cancer, another lost all her money in a nasty investment, a third hasn’t been able to find a job because who wants to hire an older man. I don’t have any of those problems. I am just realizing I put my poetry life on hold for the past year or so. Maybe others feel that way too. Maybe that’s enough to become violent….
october 17, 2021 – evil mood Read Post »
This is one of the poems he asked me to translate – years ago – but I don’t know what he did with it… he didn’t always tell me and didn’t always thanks me.
Prelude: This is an interview with a dying poet.
This is perhaps his ultimate word.
Yellow, feeble, and tormented,
he drowns in his pallid sick bed.
Q: What do you remember now?
A: Cities and studs.
Q: Which cities?
A: The cities within cities.
Cities from which cities were born
Cities in morning when all is waking.
Cities producing the dead for graves.
And the suburbs, leprous, scarred, stinking
suburbs that breed filth, whoring and sobbing –
nether cities, minor cities, pus cities
cities awaiting invaders from distant galaxies.
Q: And the studs?
A: The youths I could have been
youths I could have contained
youths I could have burned
the surf-boys returning barefoot
leathered and buckled motorcycle boys
dyed painted disco boys
yellow coated delivery boys
and Arab scaffold boys speckled with plaster.
Q: You sound gushy and gay.
A: It isn’t an election speech.
It’s a text that postpones the praise of girls
for different issues on different endings.
Q: And what do you remember now?
A: Parks.
Night parks with blinding lights
stage bushes, trees of light, artificial suns
shining grass stages for the lonely doubting rabbit
naive morning gardens sprayed by sprinklers
where a black man practices trumpet
and mothers adjust the swing’s movement, the dizziness of whirl,
interpreting childhood to their children
and mazes of greenery between palace and lake,
love corners, marble icons, ridiculed mythologies
and the tired gardeners in the shuddering shadows,
and arid gardens for spirit trees –
sand and stone gardens made by scalp-shaved monks –
bowers of sand around patterns of rock.
Q: And where from here?
A: A step garden with a thousand fountains
mazes of spouts and slivers of light
from mouths of demons, animals, heroes and goddesses –
a garden where the strollers converse in Italian.
Q: Are you hinting of the Tivoli Gardens?
A: No. Of the gardens within the Tivoli Gardens.
Q: And now?
A: Now I am fading.
A curtain rises before gilded balconies
and on stage lovers are dying
becoming a song for a final voice;
The soprano drowns in her heights
The tenor drowns in the balconies, the ceilings.
A woman as a perfect voice
A man as a symmetrical jet in the hall’s space.
Q: We’re back in Italy!
A: We’ll sail from Italy to Greece.
Marble statues in blinding brilliance
Apollo bathes in the light of mountains
lizards in shards of shining shrines
and the muses his only true love
conceive his children in the shade of groves.
Q: And some thing Israeli?
A: The Pieta Palestrina is coming.
Q: Nevertheless – some thing Israeli?
A: A spreading tree in white-hot Jerusalem
and in its shade a stone pallid and cool.
It is the stone for the wanderer of light,
It is the stone for summer rest.
Q: That’s it?
A: The valley of Beit Netufa in a blue haze
and the distant Kinneret among violet mountains
Q: Anything else?
A: The Essenes’ Caves near the Dead Sea.
FINAL INTERVIEW
Prelude: This is an interview with a dying poet.
This is perhaps his ultimate word.
Yellow, feeble, and tormented,
he drowns in his pallid sick bed.
Q: What do you remember now?
A: Cities and studs.
Q: Which cities?
A: The cities within cities.
Cities from which cities were born
Cities in morning when all is waking.
Cities producing the dead for graves.
And the suburbs, leprous, scarred, stinking
suburbs that breed filth, whoring and sobbing –
nether cities, minor cities, pus cities
cities awaiting invaders from distant galaxies.
Q: And the studs?
A: The youths I could have been
youths I could have contained
youths I could have burned
the surf-boys returning barefoot
leathered and buckled motorcycle boys
dyed painted disco boys
yellow coated delivery boys
and Arab scaffold boys speckled with plaster.
Q: You sound gushy and gay.
A: It isn’t an election speech.
It’s a text that postpones the praise of girls
for different issues on different endings.
Q: And what do you remember now?
A: Parks.
Night parks with blinding lights
stage bushes, trees of light, artificial suns
shining grass stages for the lonely doubting rabbit
naive morning gardens sprayed by sprinklers
where a black man practices trumpet
and mothers adjust the swing’s movement, the dizziness of whirl,
interpreting childhood to their children
and mazes of greenery between palace and lake,
love corners, marble icons, ridiculed mythologies
and the tired gardeners in the shuddering shadows,
and arid gardens for spirit trees –
sand and stone gardens made by scalp-shaved monks –
bowers of sand around patterns of rock.
Q: And where from here?
A: A step garden with a thousand fountains
mazes of spouts and slivers of light
from mouths of demons, animals, heroes and goddesses –
a garden where the strollers converse in Italian.
Q: Are you hinting of the Tivoli Gardens?
A: No. Of the gardens within the Tivoli Gardens.
Q: And now?
A: Now I am fading.
A curtain rises before gilded balconies
and on stage lovers are dying
becoming a song for a final voice;
The soprano drowns in her heights
The tenor drowns in the balconies, the ceilings.
A woman as a perfect voice
A man as a symmetrical jet in the hall’s space.
Q: We’re back in Italy!
A: We’ll sail from Italy to Greece.
Marble statues in blinding brilliance
Apollo bathes in the light of mountains
lizards in shards of shining shrines
and the muses his only true love
conceive his children in the shade of groves.
Q: And some thing Israeli?
A: The Pieta Palestrina is coming.
Q: Nevertheless – some thing Israeli?
A: A spreading tree in white-hot Jerusalem
and in its shade a stone pallid and cool.
It is the stone for the wanderer of light,
It is the stone for summer rest.
Q: That’s it?
A: The valley of Beit Netufa in a blue haze
and the distant Kinneret among violet mountains
Q: Anything else?
A: The Essenes’ Caves near the Dead Sea.i
october 16, 2021 – mordechai geldmann z”l Read Post »
I’ve been living in the same place for well over forty years. Most of the pictures on the wall are the same. And most of my neighbors have been around as well. But in the past two years, many of my friends and their kids have moved. Families have moved out of the city to get away from the concentration of people and give their kids some space, and other people have moved into the city to alleviate loneliness. Not that it works – sometimes you feel worse with all those people around you who are too busy with themselves to pay attention to you.
Actually, my friends are moving because they need less room… or more room.
But if I had my choice in all times and places – I would have liked my neighbors from when I moved to Israel. From all places, all tastes, all ages, but with warmth and respect for everyone. I know people now who turn their faces away when we pass, even though we live in the same building. For no reason. Back then, we were so dependent on one another we all had each others’ keys, and we could rely on each other for any favor needed. And we never thought about moving. We thought about adjusting.
In any case
october 16, 2021 – moving friends Read Post »
A few months ago Ezi decided to order a Tesla. It is not a question of transportation. Our little street is almost impossible to exit at certain times of the day, and has recently undergone a “renovation” which has left us with much less parking, wider sidewalks that no one walks on, and narrow streets that can easily result in head-on collisions. Traffic jams are all over the country, not only where I am waiting now wasting my morning. But for Ezi it’s the mechanics of the electric car that fills his mind and the idea that electricity is the future. We have installed electricity in our parking space, inspected every extra piece that can improve the velocity and safety of the vehicle, etc. etc. We even have a sunguard with the proper dimensions for tesla.
And we’re hoping the automobile will actually arrive next month.
Me I’m tooling around in my yellow Suzuki Swift, trying to be unobserved and as innocuous as possible.
october 16, 2021 – a tesla moment Read Post »