February 11-15, 2020
February 11, 2020
Because i can't get rid of this flu, and i'm not leaving my bed unless there is no alternative, I was disturbed that Ezi grabbed me in the kitchen while i was making tea and forced me to look at some old slides my parents took of their trips to Israel in the sixties. i was disturbed because i ache all over and just want to be in bed, but more at the sight of such love of country. The way they marveled at every site, every city, every mountain, every stone. Ezi is right to judge the quality of the slides - there is always something blurred, something off-center, something unclear. But i will do what i can to keep him from throwing the discolored slides away. how wonderful it must have been to see the memorials to the communities they lost and the marvels that were rebuilt from the terrible losses of the holocaust. i remember this was when my mother registered her family in the archives of Yad Vashem, and her weeping was unending.
February 12, 2020
Every time I go back to it, the story of Kurt Gerron. Until I get all the information there is I won't give up. Today i went through the virtual archives of the Weiner Library, with many articles in French, German, and perhaps Czech. i've been through some of them before, but apparently not thoroughly enough. My German is such that I can concentrate only for a few sentences, and the subject is so painful I turn almost immediately to some comedy on tv. After all, it was always clear to me that even though the film Gerron was forced to make in Theresienstadt can not be seen in its entirety and he was guarded for every shot he made there, he must have longed to portray the dignity of the Jews even under the savage cruelty they endure under the Nazi murdering. So when I read that Karl Margry suggested that he was trying to counter the scenes of Goebbel's film, "The Eternal Jew," i really rejoiced. i don't know how it can be true that he even saw this film, but i want to believe he had a message - and maybe i can help him deliver it.
You can see I don't have a life - it's my second day in bed and i don't see improvement.
February 13, 2020
That's it. third day with no energy to get up - so i went to my alt doctor. now i have a doctor in the health clinic - but he's not available right now - and anyway he doesn't have much time to check patients. so we have an alternative doc. we have annual subscriptions with her and meet with her once a month to make sure we're okay, and whenever is necessary. She's known me for at least 15 years and how much trouble it is to even diagnose me, also how much i have become averse to all antibiotics. so we figured out a plan together - and i'm going the herbal path. i already feel a little better..
or alternatively better.
February 14, 2020
gave up. antibiotics it is.
israel post: months ago we ordered a tamagotchi for our little granddaughter, it was delivered to israel long ago. but she is still waiting. all her friends have tamagotchis already. But hers is stuck somewhere in a warehouse in this country. since the beginning of the internet ordering craze here our insufficient post office system has not been able to adjust in any way. in our case it is a little toy, but there are perishable medications waiting in scattered warehouses around the country, and out-of-season clothes... That will teach us to greedily prefer the inexpensive goods elsewhere instead of boosting our own disappearing economy. Me, I ordered two sweatshirts for the desert nights in Egypt, but i've had to give up on them now.
February 15, 2020
Congratulate us. Noa - aged 12 - is going to the world Olympics. so all we need to worry about is the corona virus.
and the rockets still falling despite the peace deal
The Synagogue in Alexandria is now rebuilt and open and I'm going to be there.
February 16, 2020