I have no idea what awaits me – but i know that both of us are overbooked and need time off. two months ago we wanted to go to a place to rest but it was independence day and the hotel was full of virus-carrying children who filled every corner of the places we wanted to relax in. So we went on nature and archeology hikes. This time we hope to swim, relax, enjoy art, enjoy viewing nature…. and maybe gathering the fragments of my life into a comprehensible whole.

It isn’t a normal whole – i have to incorporate all the hate and anger and loss that has accumulated in our world. It includes the 65 children killed in Gaza, and double that number unsung in Afghanistan, and the uncounted in Africa. Those sacrificed and those forgotten. It includes all the politicians who have spread poisons throughout the world in their different ways. It includes the shameful way we’ve treated old people.

There are many ways of saying ‘oy’, including the gratuitous complaint and the expression of relief… i’m going through them all.

and i’ll try to explain it.