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Tablet Magazine has an essay contest that got me thinking – even though I’m not eligible to enter. Here’s their pitch:

Where do you feel at home—or no longer at home—physically, spiritually, or culturally? How do you find community, or a sense that you’re a part of something larger than yourself? Are there places where you feel a sense of belonging, or alienation—or both? Tablet is seeking personal essays that wrestle with these questions.

Years ago, when my daughter lived in New York and was making movies, she interviewed people for a film she wanted to make about the idea of home.  The one I remember most was a woman who said, “Home is a place you can defend with a gun.”  

She was a Palestinian lady, as I recall, and so surprised my daughter that she never made the film.  That was a period in which I thought that peace was around the corner and we’d be next door neighbors exchanging recipes and babysitters.  

I cannot forget the moment I first stepped foot on the ground here.  The argument I had had years ago with the rabbi my mother thoguht would be my perfect shiddach about why I wasn’t going to go to a religious college for girls.  I told him I believed in being part of the world,  and not only was I going to find a way to pay for tuition for a good university, but I was going to see the world.  But somehow a ticket to Israel appeared, and although I thought I’d escape to Athens and parts unknown, I stepped on the soil of the Holy Land and was hooked.   That was it.  I was home.